Thursday, April 05, 2007 @8:38 AM
the thing is....
it been bugging me for quite some time now....
i questioning myself what are the things that i still wanna achieve in life.....
i get paranoid every now and then.... seeing people like my age in my workplace leaving once they've commit for two years.... i mean do i have to do that too...?
i know its good to experience differentkind of workscope and sorroundings.....but i could see myself working here for quite some time...
on the other hand i still wanna climb up the ladder fast...
i wanna upgrade myself and take degree but i'm doubting my own self if i could really cope and have that sufficient intelligence to pull it through...
of cos i want to......there always a BUT...
maybe i lack determination...i dont now la.....
these freaking ambitious unsatisfied people make me jump out of my chair and will end up in some deep thinking like an acid that damages my whole brain....
then ill get all crazy...asking for people opinion and stuff
eerrgghhh......beacuse i myself dont have a strong vision of what i want
ya i'm just maybe im just weak and really should stand firm on what is best for me
Am i being really ambitious ...i don't know la but if its gonna promise me a better future....
but of cos there's a lot of sacrifices and resources that has to go along with it
why not kan?entahlah
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<3 ing every page of my imagination