Saturday, October 14, 2006 @6:32 AM
i should have updated my blog earlier so the readers here wont be that
lost...
now i dun even know where to start my story...
ok here goes..
it all started like two weeks after i work at SASCO...
initially i didn't see myself falling for this guy...
cause he's not muslim/malay..so i thought its harmless..nothing will happen
i mean its easy for me to like a person..but not really falling hard for
that particular person...
but rite now i think im in the middle of both stages.
i should have listen to mus..and controlled my feelings...chasing after something that is impossible in the first place..damn im so stubborn...but its like a saying that goes " the more u cant get it, the more u chase after it" well it does have its own set of consequences
to me his cute but mus think he has a cacat head (haha) i guess i have
overlook that and didn't notice anything
he's charming, gentleman,sweet,cute....eerrrgghh damn it! he will do those
little things that will make me smile and feel that as if maybe things might
work out...or is it im thinking way toooooo far
sometimes i just fell like banging my head SO HARD against the wall that i would have amnesia and forget about this bloody guy....
better still divert my attention to this new malay guy called azhar where he wanted to help me " cannon" with......
but stupid nooreen neva learn from her lesson...despite having bad
experiences in liking a guy....
i just wanna build up the faith and confidence but everytime i do that i
fall back hard on the ground...
agaknyer 90% of guys can only see personality when they overlook the
"looks"....
how i just wish guys are just blind or have "the shallow hal syndrome" for
girls like me when it comes to love..maybe im just plain pathetic
is it im being tooo emo when maybe its too early..........listening to
bloody sad lovey dovey songs ...that shayne ward " no promises" is stucked in ma head
i don't know! cause i'm already numb..................